Beta 2 in!!

It's 284, that's a doubling time of 52.67 hrs which is w/i the 48-72 hr doubling they look for. Of course my head knows that it's a great # and I need to relax and enjoy it but I definitely would've felt better if it was closer to 300.

That being said I couldn't be happier and I'm so excited about telling our parents this weekend! It's going to be a wonderful Christmas and I'm so looking forward to it. Our parents are going to be so thrilled, they've been (or tried to be) so supportive through this whole process. I can't thank them enough for that.

My u/s is scheduled for Jan. 8, I'll be 6 weeks 6 days so we should see the heartbeat. It's first thing in the morning so I'll post the results as soon as I can. I'm a little scared but I keep telling myself that the betas have been fine and there is no reason to worry at this point. It doesn't help much but I'm trying. ;)

Beta is In! :)

It’s a very healthy 151 so things look really good. That's a little above average for a healthy pregnancy at this point so I feel really good about the #s. I’ll go back Weds to repeat the labs to make sure it doubles (nurse said they’re looking for 250 or better).

For now I’m just going to enjoy being pregnant. I’m going to assume all is well and be happy. This is definitely going to be the best Christmas ever.

I tested again this morning as planned and DH asked what the result was, so I got to tell him in person and he was so excited. It’s adorable how happy he is about this. I knew he would be but it’s so awesome to see. We agree that we're going to tell our parents this weekend since mine will be in town and siblings. Then our 2 close set of friends who know about our cycle. Other than that we're going to wait until closer to 10-12 weeks to tell people.

I don’t know how I’m going to focus at work today but I’ve got to try. I’ll post more if anything comes up otherwise I’ll post Weds w/ updated #s.

Santa Came Early...

and brought me a BFP, at least on a hpt! I woke up and after feeling so pregnant the last couple days (exhausted, nauseous, sore bbs) I had to know so I took one of my hpts. I had to look at it for 5 mnutes before I believed it.

DH doesn't want to know until beta and I wasn't planning to test until Sunday/Monday. I may try to get a beta today and surprise him w/ it tonight, if my clinic will let me go in early. My mind is racing but I'll post again later and let you know about the beta (if I get one today)

eta: clinic wouldn't agree to a beta today, will go in first thing Monday as scheduled.

Pics of the snowbabies and other stuff

Here is the picture of the snowbabies from before transfer. I'm hoping at least one of them has snuggled in tight. I'm already getting antsy.

On the symptoms front I'm very bloated today and had to buy a be*band b/c nothing fits right now. My stomach has been bothering me today thought that could be from all the junk I ate this past week. I'm hoping it's a good sign though.

I've decided I'm going to try to hold out to Monday before testing, I want to enjoy everyday of being pupo that I can, no matter how things turn out. I'm hoping for the best but trying to prepare for the worst w/out being pessimistic.

6 days and counting to beta

Quick Update post ET

Transfer went smoothly and the doc said that the snowbabies looked good.
I'll post more in a day or two. Right now I'm settling in for bedrest.

On our way...almost

The count down begins. We fly out evening and we should get there tonight. We go in at 10 and hopefully we’ll get in and out fairly quickly.

I need all the good vibes and thoughts possible for our transfer (ppv appreciated particularly). I’m hopeful and excited but scared.

I’m extremely nervous about the weather messing up our flights it’s supposed to be snowy and I don’t know how bad or if it’ll be a non-issue. It won’t be a problem coming back just another day off but if we have trouble tonight and don’t get out till in the morning I don’t know that we’ll make it by 10 for the transfer.

I’m trying not to worry but I’m so nervous about every little thing. I’ll feel so much better once we get there and are settled in the hotel. I can’t wait to have the 2 snowbabies transferred and enter the 2ww.

I’ll update sometime after ET, unless we have to wait again then I might update while sitting there. ;)

Lucky Socks

Here's a picture of my lucky socks and the lovely lavendar sachet my elfster sent me. They seemed to work friday so I'm hoping they'll bring us our christmas BFP w/ this FET. I don't know if my elfster knew but I've always loved angels and have felt like I had a gaurdian angel watching over me at times. So lucky socks w/ angels were incredibly appropriate. Wearing them make me feel much more confident and positive about this cycle. I really love them and having them for this last cycle means a lot. Here's to 2010 being a lucky year for all of us.

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

We're scheduled for Dec. 11 at 10 am, any thoughts,good wishes, prayers would be appreciated.

My lining is fluffier than it's ever been at an 11 triple stripe, so it's ready and then some for one or two of the snowbabies to snuggle in nice and tight.

I wore my lucky socks (post coming soon about that) today and since they seem to be working I'll be wearing them to the transfer next week. It's silly but they do give me confidence and hope so I'll keep wearing them as long as they help me feel better about everything.

I'm scared and thrilled at the same time about this FET. Everything is falling in place and so many things in my life have happened at the perfect moment, even if at the time I didn't think so, that I can't help but think maybe this is when it's meant to happen and we'll have a christmas BFP.

I've worried about how to tell the parents given that we live 5 hrs away from one set, but this'll be perfect. If it happens we can tell Bank's parents on Christmas and then tell my folks the next day when we see them the next day. We can tell them both in person and reasonably close together time wise, and get to add to the joy of the season.

Anyway, I'm happy as can be and looking forward to next Friday!

The most wonderful time of the year
Holly Jolly Christmas

Here we go again...

My freak out about this cycle has started, the reality that this will be our last attempt at pregnancy (at least until after we adopt. We may or may not try again after that) hit hard over T-giving.

JK was very pregnant (34 weeks) and Banks’ cousin announced her pregnancy, fortunately we only found out via phone. It was hard watching JK and her adorable baby belly for most of the day and it made me very jealous when it hit me that I may never experience carrying our baby.

Banks’ cousin’s announcement was a surprise (sort of) they are/were dealing w/ IF as well so I’m really happy that they’re on the other side now but it still hurts. I want to experience that so very badly.

Getting hit by both really brought it home that this is it for the foreseeable future I’m trying to stay positive and imagine announcing our pregnancy at Christmas but it’s so hard.

On the upside I do feel good about moving on one way or the other come January. It’ll be very nice to get off this rollercoaster, granted adoption is as bad or worse but w/ that we know that at the end we’ll be parents. I keep reminding myself that I will be a mom one way or another and come January we’ll know which path we’re taking. I am looking forward to a fresh start in 2010, either expecting or working on adoption.

Oh, lining check is on Friday so we'll see if this cycle is a go then!

Ready, Set....

And here comes our FET. AF came Friday and I'm set for baseline monitoring on Monday and if everything comes back like it should I'll start vi*velle patches then. I've been using them for my HRT and I really like them better then the pills and the clinic was fine w/ it so that's a small change we've made.

I called a local accupuncturist friday since I want to try it for this cycle. She didn't answer but I left a message and I'll see if she gets back to me tomorrow.

I'm so excited and scared about this cycle, it's the last chance for us and I want it to work SOOOO badly. I'm still considering bringing up transferring 3 but I'm not sure if it's a risk I want to take yet.

I'm hoping the holidays are going to keep me distracted over the next few weeks. It's going to be a looong month or so.

Silence

Sorry for the silence, things are good except for the fact that we have no internet right now. It's frustrating the heck out of me so I'm popping on at my in-laws. Banks is teasing me that I'm addicted to the internet.

We switched from cable to dish last week and got internet through the phone company but it has yet to work.

On the upside before it went out I did something silly and fun. I e-mailed an online "psychic" that was mentioned on the IF board for a prediction on how many children I'd have and when. My reading said (in more detail then I'm going to bore you with) that I'd have 3. 1 girl and 2 boys who might be twins.
The girl would be conceived or born in November am I stretching it to think that since my lmp will be in November that it might be from this cycle? ;)

It's a fun distraction and it's helped me get positive about this cycle or more accurately that I will be a mom at some point, even if it's not as soon as I'd like.

On the FET front not much to tell right now AF should be coming between now and Saturday depending on how cooperative my body is. If it comes in that time frame we should be on track for 12/11 or so for our transfer.

More odds and ends from life to add but need to go be social.

“Silences make the real conversations between friends. Not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts.” - Margaret Lee Runbeck

Out of hiding

I'm back from my hiatus. I'm feeling better about things for the most part. I had a rough time Tuesday after I watched an 18 yr old client at work w/ her baby for 2 hrs which sucked. Then went to a fall festival w/ DH and MIL where MIL's 3 yr old niece was mistaken for our daughter. It wasn't the person's fault it was the obvious conclusiion when you are introduced to an older lady her son and dil and a young child. It still stung for a minute.

We've decided to do a final transfer before moving on. I'm not absolutely convinced it's the best decision but it's the decision I can best live w/. Banks would be happy to move on to adoption immediately, I need to have the closure of doing one last transfer.

Either way come January I'll either be pregnant or starting the adoption process. I feel much better having a time frame to deal w/. I know this will all be settled one way or the other by the new year.

I'll admit I'm scared that if it's negative it'll ruin the holidays but the truth is w/ JK being pregnant and due in Jan. they're gonna be rough anyway. Am I crazy to schedule this for right at the holidays?