Here we go

New update Banks and I are now planning (hoping) to transfer in March and will be selecting a donor at the beginning of January. If there are no problems that would put us transferring between the beginning of March and very early April depending on the donor's AF.

Some things came up and it made April difficult and I was NOT waiting until May. So here we go. I was looking at the donor list today and there are about 7 single cycle and 2 split cycle donors that I like and are available as of right now. I e-mailed Pati for info on their previous cycles and we'll see how that looks and go from there.

I can't believe it's FINALLY happening! I'm so excited and terrified at the same time. I'm aware it might not be successful and that scares me but I can't wait to try no matter what happens!

And I have to confess I had ~ $15 left on my FSA and I bought a 2 pack digital pregnancy test. I know I want to test the day of so I'm prepared for the result and I figured since I loose the FSA money Jan. 1 why not.

Hopefully I'll have more to blog about as things get moving over the next few months.

People need dreams, there's as much nourishment in 'em as food.
Dorothy Gilman

Speaking Out!

Thanks to Andrea at Bella and Her Fella for honoring me w/ the Speak Out, Speak Up Award!

In some ways it's easy for me to be open because so many people in my life know my medical situation and have been incredibly supportive of me. Having that foundation has made it so much easier to be open to others.

I've also come to realize that sharing makes things easier to take, the good is even better, and the bad is easier to take. Sharing our journey has been one of the best decisions I've made. Here's hoping 2009 is the year of BFPs!

Passing this to

Jojo at http://hopeforbaby.blogspot.com/

The elegance of honesty needs no adornment.

Merry Browne

Blah

Well blah. We're back to cycling in April. There are various reasons that make it the better choice even though it stinks that I'll potentially have to wait a year to start my masters if it doesn't work. I'm choosing to take it as a positive sign that it will work since there were lots of stumbling blocks to doing it earlier. I'm going w/ the fact that we won't need a fall back plan so we're being prevented from making one. It's ridiculously optimistic but it makes me feel better.



We had a good but VERY busy Thanksgiving. We went to my parents Weds night and celebrated T'giving on Thursday, which was nice. Friday we got up packed, had lunch and headed home. Friday night our good friends J & C and their son, our godson (Munch), stayed w/ us.



Saturday we all went to MIL's Iron Bowl brunch and then DH and I babysat Munch until after the game. Alabama won so Banks was ecstatic. Now if they can just win the SEC championship this weekend Alabama will be in the National Championship.



Other than that things are quiet, just taking it a day at the time and things are going along fairly quickly. I can't believe it's already December.

Best Laid Plans

We may be cycling sooner than planned! I found out about a master's program I want to do and DH thinks it's a good idea. I refuse to postpone cycling again so we're thinking about cycling in Feb/early March so I can get my application in if it doesn't work. No decision yet but I hope we'll make one this weekend so I can make plans.

I figure that way the cycle ends in good news, sort of, either way. Either I'm pregnant (Big YEA) or I get to get my master's in ED and start teaching (small Yea). Hopefully having something I'm happy about (school) to focus on if the cycle doesn't work will help me get through a BFN just a little easier. I don't think anything could make it not hurt but I do better when I'm busy and have something to focus on. Plus once I start teaching we'll be able to save that much quicker for adoption.

So basically this time next year, if we go w/ this plan, I'll either be pregnant (fingers crossed) or in school getting certified to teach. I'm definitely hoping it's the former but I feel better already about the possibility of a BFN knowing that I'd have something to fall back on.

The Best Laid Plans of Mice and Men do Oft Go Awry.
Robert Burns

Tag your it

Wow! JoJo at Hope (http://hopeforbaby.blogspot.com/) tagged me in this fun little tag! Thanks, I love doing these things!
Here's how it goes... Just answer all questions in 1 word (I'll try the best I can!)... And pass onto 7 other bloggers.

1. Where is your cell phone? - bedroom
2. Where is your significant other? - den
3. Your color? - blonde
4. Your Mother? - stressful
5. Your father? - immature
6. Your favorite thing? - sentimental
7. Your dream last night? - none
8. Your dream/goal? - pregnancy
9. The room you're in? - bedroom
10. Your hobby? - knitting/reading
11. You're fear? - being alone
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? - a great mom
13. Where were you last night? - out w/ friends
14. What you're not? - perfect
15. One of your wish list items? - perfect healthy baby & a money tree
16. Where you grew up? - the south
17. The last thing you did? - dinner with the in-laws :)
18. What are you wearing? - t-shirt and jeans
19. Your tv? - Watching Brothers and Sisters
20. Your pet? - sheltie
21. Your computer? - laptop
22. Your mood? - tired
23. Missing someone? - always
24. Your car? - cute (mustang)
25. Something you're not wearing? - shoes
26. Favorite store? Barnes and Noble
27. Your summer? - 4 months
28. Love someone? - Always
29. Your favorite color? - blue
30. When the last time you laughed? - tonight at the in-laws
31. Last time you cried? - 2 weeks ago, work related. :(

I'll tag my blog list if you haven't done it!

Pain?

I had my hsg today and it went well. Everything looks great and no visible problems.
Also had my lining check and I had a nice thick lining. The nurse wouldn't give me #s but said several times that it was "nice and plump", or "thick".
Hopefully Pati will get in touch tomorrow and give me details.

It was my first experience w/ the wand so that was a little different.

HSG wasn't bad at all. Uncomfortable but not that painful. I'm glad it's over though. I'm crampy now but it's not that bad, no worse than AF.

Two more things off the to do list, I love checking them off!

Pain is never permanent.
- Saint Teresa of Avila

VOTE

Don’t forget to vote today! There are few things that are more important than our right to vote and influence the people who are going to lead our country.

If you don’t vote and aren’t happy with the results you have no one to blame but yourself!