Sunday, August 31, 2008

Stalag 17

Things are much better then they were. Banks and I talked and we're starting the testing in October and then scheduling the 1st consult in January. Banks also promised no more changing the date. So roughly 17 weeks before we set up the 1st consult, and yes I have a countdown going on my calendar. I'm adding a ticker too!

I'm more comfortable w/ that, when we start the process it'll just be finding the right donor, and syncing up. I do feel better about that so that's good. I also talked to CNY fertility and the de coordinator said she could hold a donor for us a few months out if I let her know. That helps too.

So best guess we'll be cycling in April. Way later then I wanted but I"m coming to terms w/ it. I'm guessing first consult in Feb. maybe there'll be a cancellation and we'll get in sooner. Maybe I'll get lucky and things will move more quickly then I expect.

We sort of hope you'd laugh yourselves to death
Stalag 17

Saturday, August 23, 2008

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

It's been a good, bad, and ugly week.

The good:
My BFF came to visit and we had a wonderful visit. It was so great to see her and catch up. W/ her living so far away we don't get to see eachother very often and it's a blast when we catch up.

Banks and I saw our godson last saturday and this friday and he really recognized me. It was so cool, he looked at me and then got this huge smile on his face. I got to spend time w/ him and it was so fun.

My birthday, we met 4 of our friends and godson for a lovely dinner and it was really great.

I'm transferring at work so I'll only see the boss 2 days a week!

The Bad
Turning 27, for some reason this has hit me really hard it's crazy b/c I don't really think that's old it's just throwing me for a loop for some reason.

It hit me that we won't be cycling for at least 8 months, it's not easy to think about that.

The Ugly
I totally pouted thursday night. I was in such a bad mood about the not cycling that I didn't want to be around anyone. I read The Other Boleyn Girl and just vegged. I felt much better Friday but I"m still not 100% yet.
The worst part is not being able to talk to Banks about it. He's my best friend and we talk about everything, it's hard not to discuss this w/ him. I know if he knew how much this bothers me he'd move it up just to make me happy. I want him to want it as much as I do and not go through w/ it b/c it's what I want. It would be so much easier if I could push a fast forward button and just skip to January or even better April. I'm just ready to get moving on this and have a family all ready. I keep trying to focus and it doesn't get much easier.

Blah, at least I have a wonderful husband, great friends and family, and an adorable godson to spoil in the meantime. I have to keep myself focused on the goodstuff...

The world is divided into two kinds of people, those who have friends and those who are lonely
The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Breaking Dawn (Spoilers)

I've been meaning to do a review of this since last weekend and jsut now have a chance to write out my thoughts.

1) the wedding rocked, I loved it! It was sweet and romantic and just lovely.

2) The intimate, very much inferred, moments between B&E after the wedding were really well done.

Given that these are young adult novels I didn't expect descriptive writing but she managed to convey the

emotions very well.

3) I liked the surprise turn of Bella getting pregnant, I didn't see it coming b/c Stepehnie Meyer had all put stated that vampires couldn't get pregnant, she didn't rule out male vampires impregnating human women, which I didn't catch at the time.

4) HATED the name Renesmee, it was just too weird for me.

5) I liked that in the end Bella saved everyone, it was a nice change from her needing to be saved.

6) I was cool w/ Jake imprinting on Renesmee, it does wrap things up neatly.

7) Didn't think the pregnancy/delivery stuff was that bad, it was rough but I was w/ Bella on that decision. Perhaps for personal reasons.

I know a lot of fans weren't pleased w/ it for various reasons, but for me I liked that everything was tied up in a neat little bow. I liked that B&E got to have a child. Bella was willing to give up her chance at having children to be w/ Edward but it was really cool that they got to share that experience. I guess given how badly I want children I like that they got that as part of their happy ending.

"Why am I covered with feathers?" Bella, Breaking Dawn

You Can't Always Get What You Want

Banks and I went to church this morning, and the topic of the sermon "In God's time." Incredibly appropriate and really hit home, I was starting to get a little antsy about waiting again.

It was exactly what I needed to hear to be at peace, really at peace, with waiting till January. I just kept wondering and worrying but I feel like we're meant to wait until January and that I just need to be patient and have faith.

I feel so much better about it all now. So I feel good about having our consult in January, and cycling asap after that. I really hope it doesn't take more than 3 months, but I just have to relax and go along for the ride I guess!

You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes
well you just might find
You get what you need
Rolling Stones