Friday, June 26, 2009

TSH results in

and it's not good. It's only come up to .26 (from .22)after 4 weeks so we've lowered my meds again and I'll have to wait another 4-6 weeks to check it again and for our FET.

I just want this to happen already. Maybe this is a sign that we should quit and go straight to adoption, but I'm so not ready to do that yet. I really want this to work and I'm getting so frustrated with waiting. I want to be pregnant and have our baby.

I'm getting scared it's going to take months to get my TSH back in line and we'll have lost all this time, and if it takes too long maybe only get 1 FET before the year is up. I really really really want to do our FET soon.

I'm pretty disappointed/upset about this even though it's no one's fault. I'll e-mail the FET nurse monday and get a plan together. Hopefully I can go off my HRT and that way if the tsh comes back normal next time we can immediately start working on the FET w/o waiting for me to suppress. Even with that the absolute soonest we can cycle will be early to mid August which makes me sad.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


Banks is an idiot.

I went to see the proposal tonight w/ the female members of DH's family, it was really fun and we had a great time, the movie was really funny and cute! However, at dinner MIL mentions the immediate family's trip to the Beach (MIL, FIL, BIL, and us) which I tell her I'm looking forward too and ask when we're going, she says July 17th. Apparently DH was a dumbass and when she asked said that weekend was fine. I get home and ask him about it and he says he had no clue. Really b/c we had a detailed convo about it ohh a month ago!!!

In his defense he's the worst (or best) person to talk too when he's watching tv, he has no clue what you're saying, I thought he was listening but apparently not. So now I have to either postpone a week or more :( or miss out on the beach which I'm really looking forward too.

I'm so irritated with him right now. All he had to do was call me and ask, he knew we were planning the FET for July so why didn't he check with me about it?

Anyway, I'm annoyed but I'll deal.

Monday, June 22, 2009


3 days and counting until my thyroid test. I'm impatiently waiting to see what the results are.

I so so so want to transfer on July 17, it's silly but it seems like such good timing. I'd be due right around Easter which is a such a hopeful time. It would be wonderful not to mentn that my Mom would be off for spring break which would be geat.

It would be such a let down having to wait again. I just want this cycle to work so I'll do what I have to but I can't help but hope it'll be sooner than later.

Anyway, hoping to have lots to update soon.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Work Vent/Whine

Work sucks. They're switching us to a paid time off system, which is fine, but they're using it to reduce our time off by 10 days. Really what the heck, they pay us pennies and the only reason I'm working there is the benefits. I really don't know how much longer I can stick it out. I really have to make it to the fall at least but if I don't have a quit day soon or I'm going to lose it.

The work environment is awful, it's just so negative. It's clear that the only thing that the powers that be care about is money and they're running off the quality staff that actually care about the patients.

Anyway, that stuff stinks but I'm trying to think positively that after July I'll be counting down to quitting to be a SAHM. It's times like this that I hate our IF, if we didn't have to pay for DE IVF, FETs, etc. we could comfortably live on DHs salary and I could work a job I want to work instead of being miserable all week.

Nothing new on the FET front, just waiting.


Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Random Updates

Nothing new to report. Just waiting for the month to pass so I can check my TSH.
Had to sit through L&D stories at a get together the other night, but in their defense none of them knew about our IF, it was just a girls night that friend invited me too (she knew of course). Anyway a few of the other girls that I didn't know started sharing their L&D stories, which was so fun for me :(

Other than that things are good. Just waiting but enjoying my summer so far.

Monday, June 1, 2009

30 day Shred

I'm going to track my progress w/ the 30 day shred here.
Level 1
Day 1: Totally kicked my butt, really good workout though
Day 2: Still tough but a tiny bit better, I'm liking it I'll post my progress after day 10
Day 3: I got through it a lot easier, though it was still tough. Did well on the diet too.