Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy Halloween!

Things are good; I’m taking my estrace 3 times a day for the mock cycle, but that’s pretty much all that’s going on. I’ll have the ultrasound on Thursday to see if it’s enough or needs to be increased for the actual cycle. Hoping for a nice fluffy lining, I really don’t want to have to worry about that during the real cycle.

I’ll also have the HSG that afternoon. I think I’m going to drive myself but I’m a little nervous about that though. I’m planning to take my ipod and a book so I can hang out if I’m not ready to drive home right away. I’ve heard the HSG isn’t that bad and that it really hurts, I’m hoping I’m lucky and it won’t be that bad, I was told to take a couple of Tylenol a little before it so hopefully that’ll help.

Saturday we’re hanging out with friends so that should be fun. I’m hoping we can get our Christmas card photo taken this weekend. I really want to get it done, I really don’t want to be rushing trying to get the cards out this year.

No big Halloween plans we’re just having dinner w/ the In Laws and then watching a movie at home. Happy haunting everyone!

Fear is nature's warning signal to get busy.- - - Henry C. Link

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Happy

I'm happy today, we're making progress again!!!
I have my hsg scheduled and I'll be doing my mock cycle starting tomorrow! Finally we're making progress again. I can already tell the time from November to January, then February and March is going to be to torture since the last few weeks w/ nothing was making me antsy.

Not looking forward to the HSG but I'm excited to have it done. Also looking forward to seeing how my lining responds to the estrogen and if I need to do anything different to plump it up.

Oh and ROLL TIDE! 8-0 rocks!



"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."
-- Joseph Addison

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Wishes

I was feeling really stressed about the cost of cycling earlier this week. Our good friends are going on an awesome trip to Napa Valley next month and when we hung out the other weekend it was understandably a big topic of conversation.

It made me feel so so down about the situation we're in. I wouldn't trade cycling for anything but if we didn't have to pay a crazy amount of money to have a baby we could do so many cool things. It's just so frusterating sometimes when we are doing so great w/ saving and we don't get to do fun stuff w/ that money.

We are going to take a small trip in the next month or so we could use some time away together nad it'll be fun. We just have to figure out what's in the budget,

The good news is I checked w/ my insurance and the monitoring will be completely covered. All
my ultrasounds/bloodwork will be paid for! So that's totally awesome news.

Other than that it's the same old same here!

"You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true. You may have to work for it, however."
-- Richard David Bach

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Picture Day

I'm so proud of myself, I knitted this hat in less than a week. It's got a few imperfections but I really enjoyed doing it!

Moving Along

Yippee! I heard from Pati this morning, well I called her since I hadn't heard from her. Turns out she had entered my e-mail wrong and so I didn't get her e-mail. She resent it to the correct address and now I'm all set to move forward w/ hsg and mock cycle starting at the end of the month.

Now I just have to arrange for my local monitoring, for the mock cycle/HSG and the actual cycle. I pretty much know which clinic I want to use I just have to see how much it's going to cost and if they're able/willing to do it.

Time and tide wait for no man. A pompous and self-satisfied proverb, and was true for a billion years; but in our day of electric wires and water-ballast we turn it around: Man waits not for time nor tide.
Mark Twain

Saturday, October 11, 2008

No News

Nothing new to report, same old same. I'm doing horribly keeping up w/ the 365 challenge so I may make it a once a week thing and do 1 pic a week. I may do a wordless wednesday and post a pic every weds.

I'm still waiting to hear from Pati, she knows we don't plan to cycle until Spring so I'm sure it's not a huge priority. I'm going to call weds if she hasn't called by then. I want to be sure we can do the mock cycle and shg next month. For that to work I need to be sure to have talked to her and arrange it by the end of the month.

Basically I'm just waiting right now. but lots to keep me busy.

My other pregnant co-worker went into labor last week and had her little boy. They're both doing well, no problems. I'm happy for her, she's such a sweet person it's easier to deal w/ than w/ the boss. I'm just SO ready for it to be me.


"Prosperity depends more on wanting what you have than having what you want."
Geoffrey F. Abert

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

365 (6)


We had a lunch for Banks' cousin's high school graduation and this was the centerpiece, I liked it so I took a picture.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

365 (5)


Another pic from last summer, at my grandparents lakehouse. I really liked the image of the flip flops piled together.

Monday, October 6, 2008

365 (4)


This is from last summer, It's Banks and my nieces, my cousin/sister stepdaughters. I absolutely LOVE this picture.


p.s.Sorry I'm late w/ this, internet went down and I couldn't post.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

365 (3)


Banks' cousin had this on her mirror, I thought it was such an awesome piece of scripture that I took a picture.
It's also incredibly relavent to my situation right now.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Waiting

Still waiting for Pati to call, I'm so excited and can't wait. It's really allright, I wouldn't be able to start the mock cycle until the end of the month anyway so no biggie, I'm just being impatient.

It's getting so much closer and I'm so excited about that. Time is going much easier w/ things to check off each month. Then once I've done mock cycle SHG it'll be the holidays and I'll be busy and distracted until January, then it'll just be a few months until we start if things go according to plan.

Our godson (Munch) and his dad (J) stayed w/ us last night and I'm babysitting this afternoon while the guys go to the football game. Munch's mom is oot for the weekend so I volunteered to babysit so J wouldn't have to take him to the game. Munch is so adorable and I'm really glad that robbie (furbaby) is good w/ him. Robbie let him chase him and mess w/ him most of the evenning w/o any reaction at all.

Anyway, a nice quiet weekend ahead and I'm looking forward to it!

“Between the wish and the thing life lies waiting."

365 (2)


Here's our adorable godson trying to play w/ the vcr. They're down visiting for the night and I caught this on film. He loves anything with buttons he can push or play with.

Friday, October 3, 2008

365 (1)

I've decided to do the 365 photo challenge and post a pic I took everyday for a year


What? I'm just taking a nap.

I thought this picture of our furbaby was too funny and it would be a good start to the photo challenge.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

I'm P**sed

I can't believe this article http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Investing/HomeMortgageSavings/designing-the-100000-baby.aspx#pageTopAnchor

Does she really think any of us doing DE wouldn't prefer to have a child the old fashioned way? Does she really think we care so much about our child's eye color that we'd give up our genetic link if we had a choice?

As I heard it put de isn't even 2nd choice it's third, 1st would be a romantic get away w/ DH 2nd would be IVF w/ our eggs and 3rd is giving up our genetic link and going forward w/ DE.

I'm so thankful to have the chance to be pregnant but if I had a choice of course I'd rather just get pregnant. The fact that I went through POF and can't does not mean that I want a "designer" baby. I want a baby whether it's red, blue, or polka dotted I don't care.

I wish journalists would be more responsible about reporting on DE IVF and actually listen to the stories we have to tell. I don't think any of us would choose this root if we had another viable option. It's a long hard road and totally worth it in the end but not one that any of us take lightly.

Gimme Three Steps

Banks and I had our phone consult bright and early yesterday and it went well. Dr. K was nice and he answered all our questions, except a couple I forgot to ask. I was comfortable w/ his answers and how he responded. I feel like CNY is a good fit for us in our situation.

I wish their success rates were higher of course but the success rates are ok and the price includes fet's for the firs year so I just have to cross my fingers that we have some frozens. The big perk is the payment plan and the price. We'd be able to afford to move onto adoption alot sooner b/c the cost is lower and we won't have to take out a loan or a heloc to afford it thanks to the payment plan.

My big fear is us putting all our eggs in the de ivf basket, pun intended ;) , and not being able to afford an adoption any time soon. Since we won't have to take out a loan/heloc we can reserve some resources to pursue adoption that much sooner. That makes me feel MUCH better about taking a chance on de. It's important to me to try de ivf first but my focus is on becoming a mom.

So now we wait for the de coordinator to get in touch about setting up my mock cycle and shg. We'll also discuss what we want in a donor. So we've made more progress and I'm happy.

It's much easier to wait when I'm actually doing something. I'm a little worried about the stretch from January to March/April when we won't be doing much of anything but I figure at that point it'll be getting so close I can just be counting down to the cycle and focusing on pre-cycle stuff. At least I hope so.

Gimme three steps, Gimme three steps, mister
Gimme three steps toward the door.
Lynyrd Skynyrd