Thursday, October 29, 2009

Out of hiding

I'm back from my hiatus. I'm feeling better about things for the most part. I had a rough time Tuesday after I watched an 18 yr old client at work w/ her baby for 2 hrs which sucked. Then went to a fall festival w/ DH and MIL where MIL's 3 yr old niece was mistaken for our daughter. It wasn't the person's fault it was the obvious conclusiion when you are introduced to an older lady her son and dil and a young child. It still stung for a minute.

We've decided to do a final transfer before moving on. I'm not absolutely convinced it's the best decision but it's the decision I can best live w/. Banks would be happy to move on to adoption immediately, I need to have the closure of doing one last transfer.

Either way come January I'll either be pregnant or starting the adoption process. I feel much better having a time frame to deal w/. I know this will all be settled one way or the other by the new year.

I'll admit I'm scared that if it's negative it'll ruin the holidays but the truth is w/ JK being pregnant and due in Jan. they're gonna be rough anyway. Am I crazy to schedule this for right at the holidays?

4 comments:

ks and jd said...

I'm so glad to see you out of hiding! I think you are doing the right thing by finishing off your FET's. Timing is what it is... It could be the best holiday or the hardest, either way you and Banks will make it through. You've made it through this much already. Wishing you well! ((cyber hugs))

Nicole said...

No, not really. IVF is so intense on it's own that the Holidays will seem so inconsequential in effecting it. It will be more stressful since the holidays require more time in and of themselves (parties, shopping, etc.). But you will be going crazy with anticipation if you put it off too so... yeah.
GOOD LUCK with the FET!!! I hope it works for you. Having a plan and a time frame does feel better.

embieadoptmom said...

Blessings on your journey. I don't think you are crazy to do it around the holidays but HOPEFUL! What a great Gift it will be to find out you are pregnant around that time :)

Sian said...

If you feel comfortable with the decision then you are not crazy. I felt uncomfortable doing my FET now so I've moved it to Feb.