Thursday, July 2, 2009

Bring on the Rain

I got a pregnacy anouncement that hit me hard. Normally they don't really bother me beyond a minor twinge but this one really hurt.

My godbrother/family friend and his wife are expecting due in January. I'm very happy for them they are both great people but it hurts. Their due date is the same as ours would of been if our cycle had worked hit me hard. On top of that I'm freaking out that it's going to take forever to get my TSH back up and we won't be able to cycle for months, then it won't work and we'll be waiting another year+ to adopt. Basically my mind is heding into the worst case scenario territory which is SO SO SO not good for me.

I'm going to take a long bath w/ an adult beverage watch a sappy movie and cry it out. :(

Tomorrows another day
And Im thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

JoDee Messina


satto said...

There is nothing to say but I'm so sorry. IF is sooo dman shitty sometimes.

KS said...

Your time is coming... I keep telling myself that our angel is just waiting for the right time to come to us! Believe it and achieve it!

skrambled said...

I have had the same type of week. You think that you are okay with this stuff and then something sets it off. ((((HUGS))))
I am also feeling THE FEAR!

Jojobee said...

UGH! I know how hurt, angry, sad and joyful you feel. It's hard to have all those emtions. You want to feel happiness for them, but you can't because it hurts you too much. The worst is acting like you're happy for them. I'm sorry you have to go through this, it's tough. I can offer (((hugs))) for you and prayers that your TSH increases so you can start cycling very soon!
IF SUCK! That's all I have to say! Just know that you're NOT alone in your feelings!

Bella said...

I'm sorry, sweetie. Soooo hoping your TSH gets squared away quickly!!

Brenda said...

I'm so sorry. IF does suck. It is so bittersweet when someone else discloses that they are pregnant. Especially at a time when you would have been due yourself. I hope the bath and adult beverage has eased some of the pain...