Monday, September 21, 2009

Not Good News

I took an hpt today and it was negative. W/ the beta being tomorrow I'm thinking the FET didn't work. There's a tiny possibility that I'll be surprised tomorrow but I doubt it.

I'm just at a loss, it kills me that I may never get to experience pregnancy and childbirth. When I was home for Labor Day my family was doting on my gobbrother's pregnant wife and it's awful but I hate that I might never get to be the pregnant one that everyone is looking after. I so wanted to have morning sickness, and sonograms, and cankles, and feel my baby kick inside me.

I don't know if DH and I are going to try 1 more FET or not but right now I am just tired and want to be a mom. I hate that we have to deal with this...

8 comments:

IVF 40+ said...

That totally sucks. As you said there is a chance of a late implanter- I had one and I didn't get a BFP on a stick till way after the beta time.

Whatever happens with your beta, my heart and thoughts are with you.
EB

Bella said...

Praying for a great surprise for you tomorrow!! ((HUGS))

ks and jd said...

I'll keep saying my prayers for a nice surprise for you tomorrow! My thoughts are with you and your hubby this week!

Tiffany said...

keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

embieadoptmom said...

God can do anything. Keep your chin up until after your beta. Praying you will be surprised!

skrambled said...

I really hope that the evil pee stick is wrong. Saying a prayer for you.

Hopeful said...

My heart goes out to you...I am so sorry. After 7 years and many attempts, I am finally a Mom. Stay strong and know that God has a plan for you, even though when you are in the middle of a storm, it doesn't seem like it. Good luck tomorrow!

choice2make said...

I'm sorry Hope, and the test could be wrong. My friend has 2 sons that she had false negatives on HPTs with.